3/24/2009 11:18 PM

I've got that feeling
that I'm standing on top of the world.
The kind of high
that is simply human nature

I've fallen
and I can't seem to catch a grip.
And to be honest,
I'm not sure I want to.

My heart beats faster,
with just a mere thought.
It's not a health defect,
and I'm not scared.

I've been infected
with something that has no cure.
It's a sick disease,
that isn't communicable.

I once knew someone
that shared the same symptoms as I.
But she didn't have a helping hand,
she didn't survive.

But I still have a chance,
to continue to live with this feeling
all i need is a heart to share.
Will you help me?

I promise I won't be a burden.
I just need you to understand.
I don't want any trouble,
but instead, I want ecstasy.

I've been infected with Love.
I'm sure you know how to tame it.
You know the cause,
so please, bare with me.

It's the way you smile,
the way you laugh,
the way you smell,
the way you act.

It's waking up to you in the morning,
and even hearing you sing.
It's the hugs and kisses.
It's the way you say my name.

It's the way we can stare
into each other's eyes forever,
without speaking,
and feel chemistry.

It's the way you hold me
and the way you make me feel.
It's the how you whisk me a way,
and make my fantasies real.

I have no doubt
that you can make my love sickness be well,
so you are the key, you are everything
All I need is your help.

Bully

I once laughed in the face of Ignorance - HA!
only to be poked at..
only to myself,
become a victim of this cruel society.

I once spat on the face of Love
and she turned around
and trapped me under her spell
only to kill me softly soon afterwards.

I used to be a back stabber of Teases.
I soon enough found
that I'm only as strong as allowed
And sometime's it isn't strong enough.

I used to run from Emotion.
But I began to slow down
and Emotion is slowly but surely
gaining up on me.

I used to mock Beauty,
until I realized
that people hate whats not beautiful,
so I began to look in the mirror.

I used to argue with Patience.
But Patience has always won wars,
and although i won battles,
I was never any match for her.

I once antagonized Fear,
only to realize that it was instilled in me,
and effects everything I say
and will impact everything I do.

I used to betray trust.
Then I learned that trust is subtle,
and without her,
my happiness would cease to exist...

3/20/2009

I broke away, only to be snatched back and swallowed whole, to burn in the acid you created. Digested and turned into shit is how it normally goes, but then again, you may be constipated on this day. Regardless, I won't be viewed as anymore than feces, possibly. The Devil's creatures flock, and death may sometimes create me, but I will never know the real feeling of love. I will lack the knowledge of the warmth of another. I will never have the opportunity to be held or to be kissed. I am the lowest of the low. I am constantly degraded by society. I didn't ask to be this way, but instead, I was forced, never really given the chance to experience much else.

I've always longed to be a lover, but I don't know how to love, nor have I been found worthy of being taught. I am not your average Proletariat, but I am under the class of peasants. I am a disgusting, being, foolish to even attempt to be humane, yo may believe. You may look at me as if I were an alien, but needless to say, on the inside I'm pink and red and bloody all over, just as you. Unfortunately, I still live the life of a monster, hiding in the shadows, fearing that you may spit rocks at me as a walk, and give me stares to puncture my soul....

Gay Marriage: Progay vs. Anti-gay

For many years, homosexuals have made great impacts on history; they’ve fought it wars, written some of the world’s best poetry, and have even made laws as politicians. Although homosexuals have done things to change the world as we currently see it, they aren’t given the same opportunities as heterosexuals. Homosexuals have fought for so long for the few rights that they have, but the most significant rhetorical war in which homosexuals must battle, is the war of same sex marriage.

According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary, marriage is defined as the state of being united to a person of the opposite sex and husband or wife in a consensual and contractual relationship (196). If you continue to read, the second definition of marriage is the state of being united to a person of the same sex in a relationship like that of a traditional marriage (Webster-Merriam, 196). With this said, it would be believed that same sex marriage wouldn’t be an issue, since it is universally defined by a well known and trusted source. Unfortunately, this generalization is not true for everyone. To some, gay marriage goes against everything that a family is supposed to be. They believe that marriage between two people of the same sex is not sacred, such as traditional weddings consisting of one man and one woman. People with this set of beliefs are considered antigay. Others believe that love is love, and if two women or two men want to be joined in marriage it should be so. People with these beliefs are considered progay. These two groups don’t share many of the same ideas, which is why the argument of the acceptance of gay marriage in society continues to grow thick. Antigay and progays continue to argue their sides, but have yet to come to a unanimous conclusion.

Generally, the progay position is framed as a struggle against discrimination, the need for tolerance, and the inalienable right of gay and lesbian citizens to equal protection under the law (Smith, 155). Although this has been the case for many gay rights, it was recently that same sex marriage became a public argument. For years, antigay initiatives have been place on local and state ballots throughout the United States. The main goal of this was to forbid the governments from protecting the civil rights of lesbians and gay men (Smith, 156). Progays, believing that they should have the exact same rights as any antigay, or any other classification have began to rise up against this and this is when the dispute become more public, rising to the fourth widely publicized and broadly disputed subject as far as gay rights are concerned.
To both traditionalists, or antigays, and progay advocates, gay marriage is a singularly important issue; a public policy question which both side could advantageously target.(Smith, 157)

Antigays believe that the family “is an important symbolic territory because the social arrangements and relationship found there are very much a microcosm of those in the larger social order” (Smith, 157). More particularly, marriage exclusively between a male and female is non-negotiable. They believe that there must be continuity between the public and private spheres, so that status, hierarchy, and power are understood in the same way in both family and society.

On the other side, the gay/lesbian challenge provides an injustice frame which can be used to mobilize adherents. Bringing the possibility of gay marriage into the public area forces the sponsors of the existing hegemonic frame to defend their assumptions that marriage is only meant for a man and woman. The public arena forces the sponsors of the existing hegemonic frame to defend their assumptions. The “sheer existence of a symbolic contest is evidence of the breakdown of hegemony and a major accomplishment for the challenger” (Smith, 158). They believe that man and man, and woman and woman, have the same goals, values and morals of the “traditional” family, and that they should be treated as such (Smith, 158).

Antigays are also biased because they do not understand what homosexuality really is. In the eyes of an antigay person, homosexuals are shallow and uncommitted (Smith, 12). They believe that homosexuals are unable to maintain lengthy relationships. They also believe that most gays are rude and immature, and publicly don’t have any morals or values (Smith, 12) Because of these generalizations and assumptions, it is believed that a same sex marriage would just fail in the long run, therefore, shouldn’t be allowed in the first place.

Progays argue against this with much force. While some homosexuals, like heterosexuals font always make very good decisions, they shouldn’t be placed into a category because antigays don’t want them to have the same rights. In other countries, same sex marriages have been legal for years, and the relationships have lasted just as long, if not longer than the heterosexual relationships.
Much of the controversy is simply based upon people’s personal beliefs, and gays not being provided with the same rights as a heterosexual, but this also becomes spiritual. Antigays as well as Christians do not believe that homosexuality is inappropriate. They believe that homosexuality is a deviance of God’s “norm”; that it is neither normal nor healthy behavior. They believe that if same sex marriage is entertained for too much longer, marriages will “no longer stand on biblical ground against the unequivocal witness of Scripture and would thereby cease to be holy.” (Carter)

Progays argue that homosexuality is not a sin, and that same sex relationships can be found throughout the bible, thus giving evidence that it is natural (Carter). It is also argued that the discussions of homosexuality in the bible, specifically those of Paul in the book of Romans, do not support the common modern interpretation of the passage. Progays feel that Paul failed to actually say that homosexuality was a sin of God, but instead a sin of nature.

Progays and antigays will continue to fight the quiet battle of homosexual marriage. While it appears as if this could be an unending battle, both parties introduce great evidence to back up their beliefs regardless of if they believe same sex marriage is appropriate or not. But, there is a large disadvantage on the side of the progays; many politicians are antigay, and continue to fight to have same sex marriage banned in all possible states, while there are not that many antigays in high places to stand against this behavior at all (Mohr, 171). Soon this battle becomes one of those with power and those without, Christians and gentiles, and it is no longer considered a battle of what should be accept and what shouldn’t but instead a disagreement of beliefs. This is unfair because it allows room for much bias. Many people today are traditionalists. It was only recently that so many people felt that they should rise up against this hatred and intolerance towards same sex marriage.

By definition, same sex marriage is not wrong, nor is it considered “morally incorrect” as believed by the antigays. A more professional definition of marriage, as defined by Robert Blood, is a personal relationship between partners (6). While this is only the essence of marriage, Blood goes on to state that a good marriage includes compatibility, skill, effort and support (11). Marriage is not only a relationship between a person and their significant other, but should be a personal relationship as well (15). By the definition of Robert Blood, as well as the dictionary definition, nowhere is it stated that marriage is simply between a man and a woman. There is no hardcore evidence that shows that marriage is defiled or wrong if two partners of the same sex were to marry. The battle of gay marriage, though pointless, continues to exist.

Definition of a Mistake (10/21/2008)

There are many terms in the English language that can stir up conversation and cause controversy. Most of the time when people focus on abstract terms, they think of love, and passion, but rarely anything that everyone, regardless of age, race, and experiences, can relate to; words such as family, friend, and even mistake. Mistakes are common occurrences regardless of how perfect someone strives to be. Mistakes come in many different forms, but are often put into a negative connotation. That in itself is a mistake. We shouldn’t be so easy to take something and make it negative, but instead, we should look for the more positive aspects of something so common as a mistake. Generally, a mistake is a chance at an opportunity. Whether this opportunity is a learning experience for you or another, or even an opportunity to teach, mistakes are an unavoidable and necessary aspect of life.

A mistake is often viewed as an error or fault resulting from defective judgment, often associated with a lack of knowledge, carelessness, or neglect. This is how most people are taught to see mistakes, and in turn, often try to go about life more carefully, unwilling to take risk, try new things, and create new learning opportunities in fears that they will be seen as neglectful, or irresponsible. While this view about mistakes is not necessarily incorrect, it isn’t completely developed, and is generalized based upon the opinions of people that aren’t in any real position to define condemn another for a mistake because they, themselves, are not perfect.

More realistically, a mistake is a chance to learn. As opposed to a fault, it is an opportunity that may open your eyes to things that you may have never thought about before. There are two ways to learn from a mistake. One can often make a mistake, and realize that they may not want to do something again. Another way to learn from a mistake is trying again, and simply finding a more efficient way of doing something. When making mistakes, people often feel that they should give up. But if there is room for a positive outcome, through positive and legal process, there is not legit reason to give up. A mistake is just a way to make you think more logically and become better prepared for a second attempt towards a new accomplishment. An example of this particular learning opportunity is writing a research paper. You may attempt the paper one time, and receive an unsatisfactory grade. But, in receiving the paper back, you find comments, notes and markings on how to improve the grade of your paper. This gives you an opportunity to physically view how you can improve and refrain from making the same mistakes on the next paper that you may have to write. This is probably the most common positive outlook of a mistake – a personal learning experience.

During the instances in which people give up, it is an opportunity for someone else, given further research and determination to create a newer and better idea. Mistakes are not only personal learning experiences, but makes room for exposure to new subjects. For example, Anaximander, a Greek philosopher, was the man that rationalized the belief that the earth was flat. He believed the earth to be a short cylinder with a flat, circular top which remained stable because it is the same distance from all things (McKirahan 34). While his idea was logical for the time period, this was a mistake. If it hadn’t been for his mistake in logic, Aristotle, also a Greek philosopher would not have been able to follow up with his observations that proved the earth to be round (McKirahan 36). If Anaximander hadn’t made his mistake, it may have been many years later that another philosopher would even propose an idea about the shape of our earth. Thanks to another man’s mistakes, Aristotle was able to further observe and study in order to create what is now considered common knowledge. This, just as a personal learning experience is another way to define a mistake -- an improvement, or step towards the betterment of the world, society, or others.

People often feel that mistakes should be forgotten. In reality, a mistake should be shared so that no one will repeat it. A mistake can be viewed as a precaution for anyone with common interest, hobbies, or activities. A mistake performed by one person, can be warning to anyone else that may want to, or is performing the same task. Though it is not a frequent thought, this is very familiar amongst a group of people with shared interest. This is often the case when it comes to the health and well being of human beings. Many people and groups speak out against certain topics such as drugs, drunk driving, and the damages of gang violence. A specific example of this is Gruen Von Behrens, a former baseball player that once used smokeless, or “spit” tobacco. He now has oral cancer, with only a 25% of survival (Alters 212). Unable to play sports any longer, Behrens is now a spokesperson for Oral Health America’s National Spit Tobacco Education Program, warning his audience of the dangers of smokeless tobacco (Alters 212). His mistake is now a warning to all people that use chewing tobacco, allowing their eyes to be open to the dangers of smokeless tobacco.

Not only is a mistake an opportunity to teach, but it is an opportunity to simply create new experiences. Although these experiences may not necessarily be good, life experience is necessary for success and development. Without experience, you would never truly understand simple things such as right from wrong, left from right, and hot from cold. Its only thing to be taught or spoken to about a certain topic, but it’s another to burn your hand on a hot stove on a fire, or feel freezing snow on your face. Mistakes aren’t simply wrong doings, but are life experiences that are absolutely necessary for the successful transition into adulthood. In addition, mistakes allow room for responsibility. A mistake is a chance to improve in an area in which you are not so strong. A mistake is that opportunity to do something one time in order to make a life decision. While most believe that you should try to avoid mistakes, mistakes are necessary to learn. A mistake is an open door of opportunity and experience, and only becomes negative if you make it so.

Mistakes shouldn’t be attached to such negativity. Although there are some negative aspects to mistakes, it is obvious that mistakes are absolutely necessary in order to be successful. If we didn’t have mistakes, we would never truly be sure of what is not a mistake. People should come to realize that a mistake is not only doing something wrong, but is an opportunity to learn from yourself and others, and even an opportunity to teach those that may not know the possible damages or dangers that are involved with certain activities and subjects. People should begin to refrain from such harsh condemnations for committing mistakes. Mistakes are a common entity, performed by everyone, so no one person should be able to make another feel like less of a person for making a mistake. Mistakes are a part of life, and regardless of how we view it, mistakes are essential to everyone. Without a mistake, or misunderstanding, there is a large possibility that we wouldn’t be living in the society we’re living in. We would not have the “Post It” note, fireworks, microwave ovens or cork flakes (Jones 13). Mistakes shouldn’t be seen as faults or failures, but instead success and accomplishments. Mistakes are performed everyday by some of the world most important and intelligent people, and there is proof throughout history. Great philosophers, doctors, and even teachers often make mistakes in doctrine, surgeries and other task. Mistakes happen to everyone, but what is really accepted as the true definition of a mistake? Is it simply a fault? Or is it more? Is a mistake something that someone she be scalded for? Is a mistake something to be immediately forgiven? A mistake is all of these things depending on the circumstance. Life is short. We should take advantage of every aspect of it, including the mistakes we may make every day.

Wishing Upon A Star

My attention is directed upward
at a star filled sky.
I spot one star
that particularly catches my eye.

I stare at this star,
as it twinkles and glistens.
I almost feel that the star is welcoming me.
It listens.

"Star light, star bright,
first star i see tonight,
I wish I may, I wish I might,
learn to express my love tonight.

I wish I could look into her eyes,
and let her see beyond
the attitudes and darkness
and into my heart so fond.

I wish I could
just let her know how I feel.
I wish that I could just tell her
that my love is the realist of real.

I wish that I could let her know
that she'll never find a love like mine.
I wish I could express,
that to me, she is so divine.

I wish that I can hold her close
for an eternity.
I wish that I could tell her
how much she means to me.

With every waking day I wish
that she'll always be my own.
I wish she'll never depart
and leave me alone.

I wish I could give her everything
her precious heart desires.
I wish that of me,
she will never grow tired.

I know I wish for a lot, wishing star
but this is really all i need -
her trust, confidence, and commitment
so we can become a greater couple, indeed.

So if you grant me this one time,
I promise to ask for nothing more
because all i really want is her love,
and thats all I'm really asking for."

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Excuse me,
and sorry if I come off wrong.
But I'm just a lost soul,
looking for where I belong.

Time and time again,
I've been sent this way and that.
Never really sure what to believe.
Never knowing where home is at.

I think I've found it.
But I'm not complete sure.
I'm lookin for a heart in which to dwell.
Could it be yours?

Sorry if I come off strong,
but I'm tired of these games.
Either you is are you ain't,
pick one, cause they ain't the same.

I'm sick and tired
and being tired and sick.
I've been lost for so long,
and I can't keep puttin up with it.

I've been shaken and stirred,
and blown by the wind,
only to wind up where I started
yet again.

I'm broken and bruised,
and a band-aid can't fix it
No, not even two band-aids,
not even a doctor visit.

I've got permanent scars
from this disease they call Insecurity.
I heard there was a cure,
but there isn't enough for me.

So I've been looking for comfort
but creating misery along the way.
Maybe I'm my own reason
for living in so much pain..

Misery

They say I love company,
but nu uh, not me.
I'm never been the selfish type.
I'd rather see people filled with glee.

Of course I'll always have my chances
to bring somebody down.
But, hey, thats what i do,
but only when no one else is around.

I'm a sneaky little serpent,
but don't be so naive
to mistake me for dumb
because i can ruin your life, you see?

I may be small to you
but to other's i am king.
You may be happy one minute,
but i can really teach yo something.

I am the reality
of your little fantasy world.
I can transform to be the moon.
I can change into your world.

I can make you love me.
I can be the one you want.
But realize once you have me,
I can't be lost.

I give people the choice,
but they always choose to have me.
I guess instead of anywhere else,
I am where they want to be.

I don't mean any harm,
but I can't help how people feel.
It's not until something goes down,
that they realize I'm real.

Misery is what they call me.
And personally, I hate company.
All I really need to survive
is you and me.

She

She is the one you talk to.
She is the one you trust.
She is the one you always want.
She is the one you love.

She is the one that's always there.
She is the one you see.
She is the one you long for.
She is the one you can't wait to meet.

She is the one that steals you.
She is the one thats exciting.
She is the one that you miss.
She is the one that's enticing.

She is the one that you cry to.
She is the one you don't fight.
She is the one that you call friend.
She is the one that gets yo right.

She is the one that fill her with hate.
She is the one that causes worry.
She is the one that sets the tone.
She is the one that makes her future blurry.

She is the one that makes it or breaks it.
She is the one with the upper hand.
She is the one that is on the plate.
She is the one that tell her where she stands.