2/23/2009

My heart rate increases as my mind grows weary.
My feelings have exceeded my body's capacity,
and are beginning to flow freely to the public eye.
I try to brace myself for what's ahead, but I can't see.
It's dark, therefore I am afraid.
It is not the fear of what I may come across,
but more so my fear of the unknown, I think.
I continue walking into this dark place called Wonder.
I am immediately attacked by Wonder's doubts;
What can you accomplish?
What will you achieve?
What makes you worthy?
I begin to run, to escape it's torment,
but I get no where far.
We never judge ourselves fairly,
because for so long we are simply our favorite critics.
It's hard to look at my reflection
with a judgmental eye:
questioning and criticizing,
pointing out flaws, and making things better.
In your eyes, I am a flaw within myself
but in my eyes, I couldn't be better.
I guess it's best that I take a step backwards
and take apart the hands of time
just to bring things to a halt, even for a second,
to bring a smile upon my face
and give myself a round of applause
as opposed to being tortured in Wonder's land.

2/19/2009

If it's not love
then I don't know what it is.
I can tell by the way you touch
its all in your kiss

If its not love,
then what could it possibly be?
Could it be the soul catcher
coming to find me?

I've never, ever been sure
how to explain a feeling so deep.
It's got me spinning in circles,
and makes my knees weak.

And as every second passes
and the days go by,
I can't help but wonder
and ask myself why.

Why have I been graced
with such a spectacular feeling
The kind that whisked me away
when my heart needed healing.

An emotion,
that has done more than soothed my soul
A feeling that took part of me
and made it whole

It's a feeling
that allowed me to come alive
a joyous feeling
that has bought me life

It's insane
that you have this effect on me,
but i don't want it to stop
for i want you to see

that's its your embrace
that tells me this is right,
it's staring into your eyes,
and sleeping together in the night

that lets me know
that this is more than a dream
and that the real thing
is always better than it seems.