1/7/2009

Your tactics never fail
you always seem to get the best of me
only to leave me upset with myself,
and leaving me to question.
If only I had more power over you.
If only you weren't so manipulative and underhanded.
You sneak up behind me and stab me in the back,
and you make a sunny day into a storm.
You take peace and quiet to make it a catastrophe
You have the power to take a great thing and make it the worst.
Power is in you hands,
and you determine the beginning and the end.
You are an evil being,
one which shouldn't be tampered,
one that should be left alone.
But how could I ever neglect thee?
You've been around for seasons, DECADES almost
and when no other emotion could be felt
You were there.
You agreed with me, and fought with me
always be my side, regardless of the circumstance.
You've been my muse on many occasions,
an inspiration, if you'd like to call it that.
You've gotten me into trouble,
but, you love me, and you never go away.
If I'm lonely, you are there.
If I'm sad, you are there.
If I'm insecure, you are there.
Have you become my backbone? my bad habit? or my security blanket?
I can't help but wonder how life would be without you,
But then again, I can't picture my life without your presence.
You have become second nature to me, Jealousy.
When will this roller coaster end?