To Infinity

There's so much bottled up inside, because regardless of how I feel for you, how I feel about you, I can never come up with the courage yo open up to you. So many thoughts left unsaid, so many actions left undone; so many opportunities have passed me by. I'm left to wonder if there's anything left; if there will ever be another chance. I count down the days until I get to feel your warmth against mine, stare deeply into your soft eyes, or walk hand in hand down the empty street. I suddenly feel the need to clear my mind. I take a walk.

There's an eclipse in the sky above me. I can't help but position my head to admire its significance. Immediately, with a simple glance, I'm reminded of you. The moon so full of beauty and wisdom, much like your soul. This eclipse, a rarity, reminds me of the odds of finding another like you. So pure, so tranquil. Like your heart. I continue to move forward; the white snow crushing under my feet soon brings me back to reality. Is it all really a dream? Or is there truly someone like you out there for me?

Another cold night. So dark and alone. My only companions are the stars above. I soon come to the realization that my attempts to be rid of you are unsuccessful. I find the nearest bench, and I weep. No longer is this mask of happiness covering my face. No longer is this blanket of security shielding me from my own feelings. So terribly do I yearn for one to care for me just as much as I care for them. And for years have I dreamt of the day I could hold someone in my arms and never have doubt that this was forever. I'm now vulnerable, unmasked, and the uneasiness I once felt about opening up to you is now appeased.

This is dedicated to infinity. The only thing that last an eternity; The only thing that I know will never fail me, will never stop searching for something to fill my void. I've learned not to count on love, because love forsakes you. Love will stab you in the back with no remorse. So, Infinity my sweet, I know one day you will fullfill my wishes. I know someday you will bring me a bit more happiness. I dry my face, and paint on a brand new smile for the world to see. Once the new day approaches, I will be okay. Right?