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Why is it that those that you need the most, the ones that you care for the most are the ones that always hurt you the most?? Why is it that they look to start trouble? Why is it that they're never satisfied? How come they always talk down to you, and don't appreciate the things you do because its not particularly they want? Why is it that they look to blame, to cause suffering??

These are questiong that have been flowing through my head all day. Am I that much of a bad person because I'm not social?? And I that bad of a person for buying christmas gifts?? Am I so stupid because I made a mistake?

Its getting to the point where I can't stand to be me. YOU make my life miserable. YOU are the reason I walk around unhappily. Yet, you fail to realize the damage you have caused me. The heartache, the struggles, the extra stress...

No. I will not respect you, because for so many years I have tried, and when I mess you, you never take into consideration to positive. You call me nagative, but why am I that way? What causes me to cry? What causes me to go days at a time, unsatisfied with myself because of something that was said.

You say I need help, but honestly, I think I just need a break. A break from the cursing, the anger and the accusations. If I could just get away from it all...