Another Randm Thought

The power of words are quite amazing. Words more so than actions, are what trigger our reactions and feelings. Words make us laugh, cry, fight, love ect. As humans, we force ourselves to believe that words have no effect on us. That words are merely letters, merely pen and paper, as opposed to a force beyond our understanding.

to be continued...I'm hungry..

Short Question...

As humans, we constantly think about things, whether we want to or not. We control our thoughts, or so we think. If we are so in control of our thoughts, why is it that a simple word can trigger a series or deep thoughts? Why is it the the actions of others can cause of to think of the worst? Why is it that particular events can change our thought patterns to create sadness or anger?

Just an observation

So here you are, yet again, alone in the world. You find that you can't even find it in yourself to cry for reasons of which you are unsure. Maybe its because you're cryed out. Every tear in your body has been drained. Or maybe its possibly because its not worth crying over. Or maybe you cannot urge yourself to cry because pride is holding back your tears. Whatever the reason, it is not helping you at all, so what do you do? Forget about it until it comes up again? Its worked before, why can't it work again? Or maybe you'll confront your problem. Take it like a man. Or maybe, be nuetral about it, and passively get a point across?

Although your confusion of how to deal is a problem, it is at the bottom of the list. First, before even trying to figure out what to do, you need to figure out whats legit, and whats fake.

Now a days, niggas talk alot of stuff to us females. They'll tell us one thing on minute, and the next minute, they'll tell you the complete opposite. As strong as we've become, the gender as a whole, we still always seem to fall apart. Why is this? We say its because we love them, but why do we love someone thats hurts us? Why do we love people that do emotional damage? Why do we...love?

Because of our sensitivity, we can't ALWAYS blame the entire situation on that dumb nigga, but we do have to consider the circumstances. Boys make promises, that they know they wont keep for various reasons. One could be simply because they dont want to break your fragile heart. Another reason could be that they simply don't respect you, and rather drag you along, so that you may live a lie. Thirdly, they could be on some SERIOUS nigga stuff, and are trying to meet that daily bop quota. Regardless of the situation, as females, we must take partial blame for heart breaks for fallin for bull.

I believe its safe to say that every female has fallen into the trap. You kno, the "we're going to be together forever" trap. For that, we are all fools. I've grown to believe that males don't look for long term relationships, not in high school anyway. My mind has been manipulated to thing this such thing exsisted. "Silly girl", I think to myself and i reminise on my past mistakes. Foolish me. I can't help but to laugh when i realize how many girls are in their fantasy worlds. HILARIOUS.

Love is real. It does exsist, or so I believe, but relationships in which you are in love, never last forever...If you think they do, you're sadly mistaken. You must be able to separate the truth from the lies. Too many times have people been led to believe one thing, when CLEARLY there was another goal in mind. we should let relationships be relationships, as short term, and as meaningless as they are, and let love be love, never mixing the two. At this age, at this time, it is a dangerous combination and shouldn't be tampered with. Lies, Deciet, Pain. Thats all it is.

Hate you all..
Have a nice day! =]

The REAL Unititled

What the !@#$ I !@#$in hate the !@#$in !@#$y !@# world and all the !@#$in stupid !@#$%es and !@# holes that live in it. Its amazing how feelings can change so ^&*%ing drastically. ^&$@! &%^$ing bull @#$%.

Words cannot begin to describe my feelings, so I decided to use symbols. Current mood: Emotional; Confused, sad, happy, broken, torn, bitchy, angry, and the list could go on. Why is it that we get so emotional, so caught up in our feelings? Why cant we just brush things off as easy as we want to? Why can't life have an ignore button, that can allow us to leave our problems and worries behind us?

I guess some situations are just for the best. They keep us on our toes with that little reality check, which we need it this crazy place called the world. We can either choose to learn from them, or we can drown ourselves in sorrow, and let it haunt us, bring us down. Some of us have yet to grasp the first concept, so we continue to fight ourselves and have doubts, with no longer having anyone to confide in, nothing to look forward to.

Being stripped of most freedom, you're left alone in this cold world. Losing sight of goals and ambitions of the future. You curl up, and feel yourself losing your mind, but still holding on. Its sad that we suffer because of certain things, but if we didn't suffer, how else would it be called life?

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Edit/Update: Nov. 6, 2007 @ 8:23am

I hate you bastards...

The Untitled

I feel is though this entry isn't worthy of a title. Because, not everything is worth thinking about. Sometimes, I sit back, and I try to just think about the good things in my life. I think about them briefly, before quickly running out of things to reminise upon. Being so deeply endulged in my thoughts, I ponder to myself "There aren't really many things worth looking forward to anymore". I guess its the that my mind has be tainted, and spoiled to believe that I'll always have what I want, when I want, and how I want it. Honestly, I'm beginning to see that I have been sadly mistaken.

Its amazing how quickly something can be snatched from under you. Before you know it, but down, on your ass, alone and stupid, unsure of what to do, how to react, and how to feel. You attempt to move on, because as previously stated, not everything is worth thinking about...Or is it? You try to convince yourself that this situation isn't worth time, thought nor effort, but if it truly isn't, why do you catch yourself still ruminating; still thinking about how things could've been different.

One can't help feel hopeless after have their EVERYTHING taken from them in an instance. No longer having hope and confidence in your future, but you now find yourself wish from luck, crossing your fingers, thinking of clovers. But in your mind, you begin to doubt. Doubt your prayers are being heard, doubt your wishes are being granted. You want to give up, because the future is no longer in sight because you can no longer see whats ahead of you why? Because silly, now instead of being on your ass, you've been pushed over, and find yourself on your face. You attempt to brush yourself off, but the scars are there. The blood, sweat and tears, have left their humble appearance on the ground in front of you....

Life was created to be hated. I've learned that you shouldn't really depend on people to make you feel good, because in the end, although they mean to be helpful and considerate, all people do, as humans, is knock you down...

This note is dedicated to no one..based off nothing, but just something i've been thinking about.

(Sorry Erica, I know you called, but I'm really in no mood.)